The Paci Parallel

Today, we took Kuy to Build-a-Bear to give up his pacis.

This was a huge deal. Yep, we were those parents that let our almost three year old still have pacis but only in his bed, I promise.

You see, six months ago, he gave them up for good. It was easy. No big deal at all. Until we moved. When we moved, he found one somewhere and he was back in the rut of sleeping with pacis.

I didn’t mind so much and I would check his teeth daily to make sure they were okay (a little vanity issue, I know).

However, he’s about to be three in June and I knew it was time.

Zulily had a voucher for Build-a-Bear and we had heard that you could put the pacis in the bear and they’d sew it up and that way the child got to keep the pacis.

Man, it was so cool. We had never been to Build-a-Bear before (where we learned you could easily spend a fortune) and Kuy was perfect! He stuck his pacis in the tiger he picked out, picked out a heart and rubbed it on his heart, and got it stuffed to be sure those pacis were tucked in tightly.


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He even picked out some cool boxers and a Clemson t-shirt. Not the cutest outfit you’d ever seen, but it was he wanted and we wanted to make the transition as seamless as possible.

I even texted my best friend how great the experience was!

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Until it was naptime.

And from that point forward my heart was shattered.

He cried and cried and cried and cried.

He cried, “I want my pacis! I want my pacis!” Over and over and over. It didn’t matter what I did or said or how I talked in a tiger voice or what I sang or what I prayed.

Nothing was going to change his mind.

He wanted those pacis.

It was truly heart-breaking.

I was almost at the point of tears until he finally calmed down briefly and wanted to sleep in Cray’s crib. Again, I didn’t care what it took. Except ripping open the tiger or going to the store to buy more.

But at the perfect time, Russ walked in with tears in his eyes and leaned over to him and said, “I have never been so proud of you. You are going to be the greatest big boy ever. I’m going to tell you this a lot, but today, I have never been so proud of you.” And as I sit here, choked up, I can’t help but think watching him cry his eyes out until he couldn’t breathe is not even AN INCH of what Mary felt watching Jesus give everything up for us.

It’s no coincidence Kuy gave his pacis up today to remind me.

To remind us.

How heart breaking it truly is to think, to read about the crucifixion. What a miracle.

How GOD TRULY feels that he GAVE UP HIS SON.

Kuy gave up his pacis and I couldn’t control myself!

God watched His son in anguish on the cross. Jesus even cried out but even His tears were unselfish, “Father, forgive them!” Them! US!

And even though this is such a small comparison, it was all I could do not to cut those pacis out of the tiger.

I can’t imagine how badly God must’ve wanted to reach down and pull Him off that cross. How badly Mary must’ve wanted to go and hold on to Him as He cried. Because I wanted to hold on to Kuy. I wrestled with him as he cried and

Because in that moment, I wanted nothing more than to rip those seams open to pull those pacis out of the tiger.

Because in that moment, God could have ripped open the gates of heaven to reach down and save His son.

But He didn’t. The veil was torn for us.

He saved us.

He saved you.

He saved me.

Jesus died on that cross to save you and me from what we could not see.

As much as I wanted to give those pacis back to Kuy, I know it’s what’s best for him.

God knows what’s best for us.

But instead of something small as a sacrifice, He chose His son.






You should know that Kuy only cried for about ten minutes. But those were the longest ten minutes I’ve experienced thus far as a mother. When I went to check on him, he was asleep peacefully and all is well….until he goes to bed tonight, I’m sure. But again, I’m reminded of how long the time must’ve been for Mary, for Martha, for Jesus in His agony as He prepared Himself to see His father the way it was supposed to be.


Liebster Award and Nominees

I was SHOCKED, OVERJOYED, and completely humbled to be nominated for this award!


Thank you to one of my favorite DIY couples over at DIY Passion and for a blog I just discovered that is precious, Designing Dee for this nomination!! I was seriously over the moon to be nominated. But, go check them out, along with my other nominees because they write some pretty amazing stuff!

What does this mean? I’m still not exactly sure but what I do know is that you are nominated by other bloggers to help recognize other small blogs, you are to nominate other small bloggers with less than 500 followers, and answer some questions about yourself and your blog plus five random facts . Other rules are floating around, too, but these are what I have found to be consistent.

Now, for five random facts that are so hard to come up with…

1. I thought about starting a blog for a year before I actually bit the bullet.

2.Instead of coffee, I drink Diet Coke in the morning (don’t worry, only one throughout the day).

3.I still kind of love sleeping in but always feel better when I get up early!

4.I’m that person that will take something back if I find it cheaper somewhere else or before I even go, spend thirty minutes trying to find it cheaper somewhere else (hence, why I pray about my shopping ventures) because I don’t want to make the trip back to town so I need to make the right decision the first time.

5. I have a hard time making decisions.

And the sixth random fact is that I let my husband read these and his response was, “Wow, you sound like the most boring person ever.” Awesome. Hopefully, you find me more interesting. J

And the questions from other bloggers…

What do you like most about blogging?

The connections and awareness I have gained from blogging has been humbling and eye-opening. We live in such a great big world that truthfully, is so small. Thanks to the benefits of the world wide interwebs connections are being made all over the world. Knowing this platform reaches that many is humbling. The first couple that nominated me is from Nova Scotia! I would have never made a connection without them and formed a friendship had it not been for this blog.

This irony is what is so amazing to me. I realize just how small I am when I see the hundreds of thousands of blogs…it seems like I learn about a new one each day. But then, simultaneously, I see the power it has, too…which leads to this question…

What do you find to be the most challenging thing about blogging?

Whew. It’s like everything else in life. It takes time, energy, and patience. I read once that the number one blogging tip was making connections. This baffled me because it’s something we do every day but sometimes, we give media too much power and lose that connection between real life relationships and lose sight of the fact that life is about making connections and connecting with the One who created all of it that surrounds us.

This truly has been the hardest to grasp. This is real life. Real life is happening around us. It is NOT an accident. It is NOT a coincidence. The creation of every real moment around us should be cherished, recognized, and supported with the essence of the connections formed.

How do you explain your hobby to people when they ask what you do?

Honestly, I just feel like I’m sharing something that I love to do. I love to make old things new. I love to share what God is teaching me through our little family. I love to create beauty out of the ordinary because I see God creating it all around me. Therefore, this explains itself. It is hard when people think (because I was one of those people!) that it doesn’t take time and effort but again, it’s just like life. People are always going to judge. But slowly, I’m learning I’m not here to please them.

What’s the worst DIY fail you’ve ever had?

This is the easiest question because I completely failed at trying to paint a wing back chair. I have been scared to show pictures because I feel like I ruined these chairs and they were a gift from some dear friends and I didn’t want them to be upset! (Fingers crossed I can still recover it! Any tips would be much appreciated!)

Who has been the biggest influence in your life in terms of your creativity?

Without a doubt, my husband. He talks me into everything or out of everything in a skinny minute. I look to him for advice, ideas, and just to talk things through with him. Bless his heart, I’ve called him in from watching a basketball game just to ask about a paint color. He is by far the most creative because he sees things for what they are and understands how together, we can make them so much better! He’s the one that showed me what my style really is. Thankfully, his is similar so when I want to paint everything, most of the time, he’s on board!

If you could have a dinner party with you and five other guests (dead or alive) who would they be and why?

This has been the hardest question. Only five people??? I would choose these people that I ordinarily would NOT have the chance to meet (but I have to start with Russ because he’s way better at starting conversations that I am so I need him there for moral support):

  1. Russ Tysl
  2. Shannan Martin
  3. Jen Hatmaker
  4. David Platt
  5. Francis Chan or  Lysa TerKeurst


What’s the one place in the world you haven’t visited but would love to see?

Uganda so I could meet our Joshua!

Do you have a guilty pleasure? What is it?

Yes….Scandal! Please don’t tell but I’m obsessed with Olivia Pope!

Is white chocolate really chocolate? :)

Hmmm. Yes? Anything dealing with chocolate works for me!

If we were in a parallel universe, what would your job be? As in, what’s the one job you think you could have done, but didn’t pursue?

Without hesitation, I would be a dance teacher. My husband still thinks I should pursue this dream but with two boys, I can’t seem to make the hours work in my head to support their events and be at the studio!

What’s your favourite knock-knock joke?

Not.a.clue. I love to laugh but my husband is the jokester in our family. :)

Without further ado, here are my nominees:

Elizabeth Joan Designs

Little House of Four

D.D.’s Cottage and Design

Dream and Differ

The Thankful Heart

Eve Isle Studios

Love My Simple Home


And my questions for these nominees:

1. Why did you start your blog?

2. What is the most important thing you have learned through the blogging process?

3. What is your biggest pet peeve?

4. What is your favorite room in your home?

5. How do you balance it all? Blogging, social media,pinning, link parties, etc.??

6. Where did you get the name for your blog?

7.  Describe how you decide what to post.

8. What gets your creative juices flowing?

9. When do you complete your projects?

10. Where is one place you would live other than where you live now?

Let the fun begin!

My New {Old} Door Headboard

I have been so excited to show you this but so hesitant to show you pictures because it’s still not perfect. Then, I remembered that none of this is about perfection so I’m hopeful you’ll forgive the imperfection and appreciate the progress.

So if you decide to scroll down, you’re not allowed to judge, okay?

Because let’s be real…this is what my bedroom looked like before: IMG_1744 Totally embarrassing. Totally shameful as I try to teach my children organization, I have totally failed by setting any kind of example. I know my OCD friends are cringing. Stop judging.

Here’s my excuse: our bedroom is the catch all room. It’s where things go as we still try find to proper places and storage for all the stuff we have brought into this house….even though I am trying to purge, purge, purge! It’s just what happens.

Until I couldn’t take it anymore and I begged asked my dad and husband nicely to hang this door that I had been dreaming about as a headboard. imperfect headboard Originally, the mantle was a great idea! After all, it was from our chimney that we tore down. But after we moved it to our room, I could not get a vision for it. Does that happen to you? The dark wood didn’t work for me even though I tried so hard to make it work. But I did have this vision: using the door to our old and russ This door sat outside and sat outside for months because I didn’t really know if I was going to use it and I thought it was going to be ruined but as luck would have it, the white paint came off by itself and gave it the look I was going for…then, I talked Russ into it.

I thought the look was perfect. I didn’t do one single thing to it. They hung it on the wall just like it was. marking wall

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Super simple. Find your studs and use some four inch decking screws. headboard

Remember this frame to tray? Now, it’s perfect beside my bed. I know a monitor and glasses could be moved to stage a picture but again, I felt like I should be real. At this current moment, those things are beside my bed (well, except for this book because I’m rereading it!). bedside tray

In case you’re curious, the lamps are yard sale finds, spray painted white. The bedside tables are a painted desk from Craigslist from our previous living room and a desk from my college apartment just covered in fabric.

I’m also obsessed with this little stool I found at a thrift store!


I so much enjoy walking into my bedroom now.

The change was refreshing, and of course, simple because it was something we already had (I realize not everyone has a door lying around but head to your nearest thrift store and I’m sure you could find something! Or buy a new one at Lowe’s!).

And if you’re like me, you will finally realize you’ve stopped hiding behind someone else’s style and recognized your own.

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I’m in love.



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One Room Challenge, Week 2

So about this One Room Challenge that I don’t have time for at all am really excited about…

I do have plans, I promise. It’s just that Cray’s birthday is in two weeks and my head is spinning with thoughts of that and getting the deck ready and outdoor space. SO, I promise in a couple of weeks I will have more accomplished.


These are my plans for the space if you will be patient with me a bit longer.

1. Paint the floors white.


I considered stripes on the floor but I want to use this curtain from this bathroom makeover as the curtain for this small window so I think have vetoed stripes on the floor.

2. Paint the walls something similar to Revere Pewter so I have a calming space (Maybe changing the light fixture should be on the agenda since that one was $5 one of our million visits to Lowe’s!).


3. Move two tall bookshelves someone gave us that they purchased at a yard sale and cover the back with wrapping paper (I have one already done that I will show you this week!).


4. Hang some type of peg board/cork board (I’m loving this tutorial!) here on this part that sticks out where the chimney is. I’m also thinking for now I will just use a desk we already have instead of trying to add legs to the coffee table. Maybe that can come at a later date.


5. OR I thought about adding another yard sale bookshelf that I painted on top of a desk as a hutch of some sort for more storage in this space.



If you follow me on Pinterest, I will hopefully be adding some pins throughout the week to find some unique touches!

DIY Rolling Drawer Storage

Our shoe storage situation has really been bugging me. I tried a basket under a bench. And I loved it. Until the top broke. I guess that’s what I get for paying all of $3…at a thrift store, of course! (Now, it’s the perfect toy storage in the living room!)

Fast forward weeks (maybe months later) until I found a beat up black end table ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD! If you follow me on Instagram, you know I’m having some luck there lately but this is one of my favorite projects!

For a while, I just placed one of the drawers from the broken table under the bench hoping one day to have a vision and put some casters on it like I had seen so many different times on Pinterest. And one of my new friends just posted a similar tutorial for rolling storage!

Then, one day, I was out in the building digging for something, and I came across these pieces of wood from our refrigerator and an idea struck.

You know how much I love stripes and I had just picked up a new sample of paint at Lowe’s I was dying to try!

I quickly painted the wood pieces in white and bluish.

Once they were dry, I took some wood glue and painter’s tape to attach the pieces the left it to dry overnight. The wood was a little longer than the drawer but I kind of liked it that way (excuse the photo bomb by Cray).

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I talked Russ into drilling me some holes for a handle (notice I had to pull one of my already dried pieces off to do this…not terrible but not ideal).

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And my wonderful parents grabbed me some casters at Lowe’s.

Now, if you’re not handy with a drill, no worries! I put these casters on with HOT GLUE! All I did was flip the drawer over and GLUED them to the bottom.

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I’m telling you. These projects aren’t hard and they make a huge impact!

Rolling Drawer Shoe Storage  shoes storage

Now, I love our shoe storage and both boys are already learning where everything goes! It makes life so much easier!

What do you do for shoe storage around your house?


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